I’d like to share a short experience.

I love it when God does a work in the hearts of His people!

As you may have read in other posts I have really felt a calling in my heart to draw closer to the LORD through prayer, reading His Word, gaining all I can from messages given at church, many ways! Now, more than ever, I feel my need for a closer walk with Him. And I’ve done my best to respond to that call. Though, I know I need to continue to work harder and keep that zeal alive in my heart. And do more for the LORD.

In this time that I’ve been seeking Him more, God has given me a little experience. I hate using words like ‘small’ or ‘little’ when it comes to the things of God. Because with God nothing is little or small or too big. To you it may seem like a little thing, but to me its a great deliverance!


Something you should know about me is I’m a very paranoid person. I’m always thinking about these horrible and terrible scenarios. Just totally absurd thoughts. Tragic things happening to my children, husband, family members. And I just play out these crazy thoughts in my head. Like a horrible disaster movie where bad thing after bad thing happens and it just leaves you feeling depressed and scared after watching it. Well, that’s a bit of what goes on in my head.

Except it’s not just every-so-often these thoughts come. It’s not once a month, every couple weeks, or even once a week. It’s every…single…night. For months this was happening. I will toss and turn thinking and imagining. Sometimes I would wake in the night with these paranoid, fearful thoughts.

BUT GOD! Has put a deeper calling on my life. I’ve made a great effort to begin reading my Bible every day this year, which will result in reading the Bible through cover to cover. And ever since I’ve been reading the Bible I haven’t had one fearful thought! Glory be to God!

I feel like Joseph, in the book of Genesis after he is done interpreting the dreams for Pharaoh, when he says in Genesis 41:16 “It is not in me: God shall give…” It wasn’t anything that Joseph did, BUT GOD did it for him. And that’s how I feel! I didn’t do this. I couldn’t have done this. I tried for so long to gain control over my thoughts. I would quote scriptures, sing Godly songs. And yet, the only victory I would get over it would be falling asleep. But it’s been weeks since a thought of fear has entered my mind. That could have only been God!

And it’s not that I had this sudden epiphany or read this extremely powerful scripture verse that just miraculously made it all click and fix things for me. Though, I do certainly believe that could have happened! In fact, I think that’s what I was expecting. I’d be sitting reading my Bible and then it would happen. It would just hit and click. All around me would light up. And my hair would begin blowing back perfectly with a rush of wind. You’d hear the choir of angels sing! And I’d be healed from my spirit of fear! I was really expecting that! Okay, I dramatized that a bit, but something along those lines.

(I’m certainly not making light of that. Because I really believe God can instantly heal people of conditions; mental, physical, and spiritual.)

But that’s not how it was. It was simple. I just began filling myself with MORE OF GOD! Something amazing happens when you empty yourself of yourself and begin to fill yourself back up with God. Christ begins to move on your behalf. And you will start to see changes. You’ll begin to have deliverance from things that have been burdening you.

Christ said in Matthew 11:28-30 “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Do you think God wanted me to have that spirit of fear in my life? No! But I think He wanted me to be more full of Him. To start making Him a priority in my life instead of secondary. And sometimes He wasn’t even secondary to me. And if I’m full of Christ do you think I’ll be carrying around nonsense burdens? No! Christ has already bore those burdens for me. We just need to give it all to Him. Start emptying yourself of your wants and desires and begin to let Christ come in and fill you up.

I’m not saying I’ll never struggle with being fearful again. I’m a mom so I think a lot of it is just natural. But that’s where God comes in. I need to start getting rid of the things that put those fearful thoughts in my head. Maybe it’s some intense TV show I watch. Empty it from my life. Then, fill that up with Christ! Fill myself up with Christ and claim the victory over it!

God is so good! I understand now how David felt in writing the Psalms. He was so full of praise. I, too, want to be full of praise for my God!

And I just want to end this with a verse in Genesis 32:10 when Jacob is praying to God he says “I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies.” And that’s how I feel. I’m not worthy of His mercies and of His goodness! But He’s faithful! His mercies are new every morning! He wants to see us have victory over the burdens we have in our lives! He hasn’t asked us to carry those things but He said “Just give them to me!” Fill yourself up with Christ and He will fill you up with good things!


Highlighting with Colored Pencil

At the start of this year I made it my mission to read more and study the Bible more. Not to read just anything, but books of worth. Books that I can learn from and gain some knowledge. Books that cause you to think and evaluate your life. Books that motivate you to change for the better. Books that add something to your life.

Whenever I read books like this I love to underline and/or highlight things that stick out to me or that are worth value. I feel like I retain more. It brightens up what I’m reading. And it gives my reading some purpose. And then when I go back through that book at a later time I can quickly search for the things that stood out to me.


 I’ve recently come to love colored pencils and figured they’d be a perfect highlighter! There are so many color options. Which is perfect for subject studying. Or for brightening up your book. They are very light so you don’t have to worry about it bleeding through the paper. You can put a light amount of pressure for a lighter shade or apply a brighter/darker shade if that’s what you want. Sometimes if there is a single word I want highlighted I do a very light shade of color over it. So it’s there but subtle. And for whole sentences I do more of a darker or brighter shade.

These are the colored pencils I have been and enjoy using. Pretty basic, but lots of color options and it gets the job done. Crayola 50ct Long Colored Pencils (68-4050)


There are currently 3 books I’m reading that I’ve been using colored pencils in. For one book I’ve picked one color that I’m going to use throughout the book. It’s a pretty light green shade. For whole sentences I get it as solid and bright as I can. If there are key words that pop out to me in a sentence I lightly color that word so that as you come across that word I know it’s important to me, but may not be the first thing that leaps out at you on the page. And if there are big paragraphs that I like, but don’t feel like coloring the whole thing, I just make a square or bracket with the colored pencil around the paragraph.


My second book is my daily devotional book. For this one I don’t really have a rhyme or reason for what I do. I just read my devotional for the day. And if there are things that leap out at me then I choose a fun color and highlight that phrase or group of phrases. Each day I like to pick a new color. It’s fun and bright. Makes for being dedicated to my devotionals a bit easier. I look forward to finding things in them, choosing a color, and highlighting it.



And my 3rd book is the Bible. I’ve been doing a lot of scripture reading and plan to do more studying of His Word. But I wanted to do more than just underline and highlight with the same color for every verse. I wanted to be able to categorize the colors I would use. Which would make for better subject studying. So I’ve put together a basic list of what the colors I’ll use are for. I’m sure the list will grow as I get more in depth and the more I figure out how I want to do things. I needed some inspiration on what colors to use for different subjects, so I got an idea of what to use here, but also added some of my own and used my own scripture examples. So, here’s the color list for Bible studying:


(I keep this list in my bible notebooks as a quick reference)

Green-My thoughts and actions. We are used to symbolizing ourselves and our fleshly nature as “the old man.” And as we become more like Christ and allow Him to work in us we call it “the new man.” So to represent this I liked the idea of a nice bright, light green for verses that deal with our thoughts, words, and actions being more like Christ, a Christ-like nature. For example this scripture which is highlighted green in my Bible. “That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts; And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.” Ephesians 4:22-24  

Blue-Scriptures for things personal to me. I’m a wife and a mother. But I’m also a daughter, a sister, and a friend. So for scripture verses pertaining to these things I highlight in blue. Such as Psalms 113:9 “He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD.” 

Pink-Love and kindness. “This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you. Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:12-13

Yellow-God and Jesus. Who they are and what they do for us. II Samuel 22:33 “God is my strength and power; and he maketh my way perfect.” 

Purple-God’s promises. “I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth. And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud: And I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh.”  Genesis 9:13-15

OrangeThe Holy Spirit. Acts 2:4 “And they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.” 



Hope this is helpful to you and sparks some ideas!

Am I a Mary or a Martha?

Today as I was reading my daily devotional (Trusting God Day by Day by Joyce Meyer) it talked about knowing when to start and stop. In the devotional she referenced the day Jesus and His disciples came to the house of Mary and Martha. How Mary knew when to stop and Martha didn’t. So I figured I’d do a little study of my own on this subject and look further into the story of Mary and Martha on this particular day Jesus came to visit.

We can read of this account in Luke chapter 10 verses 38-42. In verse 38 we see they come to Martha’s house and in verse 39 Mary sits at the feet of Jesus to listen to His words. And in verse 40 Martha starts to get stressed out.

“But Martha was cumbered about much serving, and came to him, and said, LORD, dost thou not care that my sister hath left me to serve alone? bid her therefore that she help me.”

I can only imagine what Martha was feeling here. We have all, at some point or another, entertained guests. It’s a bit of a stress. Is the house clean? Will they feel comfortable? Will the food be good? Will they have a good time? But we are talking about hosting Jesus Christ and His disciples here. I would’ve probably ended up burning down the house in a nervous, stressed-out, frenzy. And then, Mary her sister, who is supposed to be helping her goes in and sits with everyone leaving Martha to tend to everything else on her own. I get it, I’d freak out too.

I know Martha didn’t actually freak out, but it was pretty obvious she was frustrated.

But Jesus tells her in verse 41, “Martha, Martha, thou art careful and troubled(anxious) about many things.”

She was worrying about things that didn’t need to be worried about.

Verse 42, “But one thing is needful and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”

One thing was needed in that time and it was to sit with Jesus and hear what He had to say. Put away the things of this world, the tasks of the day, the stresses and spend some time with the LORD.

Psalm 27:4 “One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.”

I want so much to seek after the LORD. To admire His beauty as Mary did. Every day to dwell in His Word, in His presence and learn more of His excellent greatness.


A couple of questions came to my mind while reading these scriptures. Why did Martha show Jesus her frustration? Why wasn’t Mary helping Martha? What was “that good part” Jesus was talking about in Luke 10:42? And why was it something that could never be taken away from her?

Some of these questions just came from curiosity and don’t have much value in their answers. But some of these questions have good answers and are a big part of the lesson we should take away.

In John chapter 11 we read the account of Jesus raising Lazarus from the dead. I wont go through this chapter in detail since it isn’t my focus. But in this chapter we find out that Jesus was good friends with Mary, Martha, and Lazarus. He had spent time with them and in their home. John 11 verse 35 we read that He was moved to tears at the death of Lazarus. So we know that Martha must’ve been pretty close and comfortable with Jesus to express her frustrations to Him. (Luke 10:40)

As for my second question, Mary and Martha are two different people. They had different personalities and demeanors. Martha was maybe more controlling, a leader, more of an outgoing person. Mary was quieter and her approach to Christ was one of a very humbled person. She strongly desired to enjoy the presence of her Savior.

Is there anything wrong with being a Martha? No! Absolutely not. We should all have a heart to serve God and His people. But Ecclesiastes 3:1 states “To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.”

As a housewife I think my #1 priority is to serve. Cook, clean, etc… but sometimes it’s important for us to sit. Especially to sit awhile with Christ. Spend time in prayer. Spend time reading His Word. Admire Him, learn from Him, dwell with Him daily. (Psalm 27:4)

We have many priorities and responsibilities as wives and mothers, but what is most important?

Like Martha there are so many things we become stressed about. This is our job! It’s our duty to serve people. As wives we serve our husbands. As mother’s we serve our children. As stewards of God we serve His people. But who are we ultimately seeking?

Matthew 6:33 “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness…”

In our day we have the Bible to read. That’s our guidance, that’s where we learn of Christ, that’s our foundation. In Mary and Martha’s day Christ was The Word. Mary chose “that good part.” She chose The Word. Which the answer to my 3rd question. In Hebrews 2:1-3 we read of the importance of hearing and doing the things of the Word. To choose the “good part.” And in answer to my 4th question. Things of this world will pass away, but the things of God are forever. They give us eternity.

There are many needs in this life, but what is the greatest need? Why are we allowing secondary needs to fill us up when Christ is priority? There’s wisdom in choosing what to do in our day-to-day lives and when to do it. Cleaning the house, caring for our family, these things are priorities. But don’t forget to set aside those things for a time and for a season to seek after God. For in Him is our strength. In Him there is life everlasting.

I would like to think that I would be a Mary, but honestly, I’m pretty sure I’d be a Martha. Not a bad thing. But for such a time as that was, Christ wasn’t going to be there, in the flesh, forever. They needed to learn all they could from Christ while he was with them. And for such a time as this, I need God more than ever. I’m a young mom of 2 kids. I’m a wife. I can’t do this on my own. I need more of Him to get me through.

Again, I want to stress that there is nothing wrong with being a Martha. She loved the LORD so much, as do we. I’m simply encouraging myself to look at the big picture here. How much time am I spending with Him? I’m not saying keep your nose in the Bible all day while your family needs you. But to look to Him more. Seek Him more. In our troubles and in our needs where can we go but to the Rock that is higher than I. I want to dedicate more time to Him and less time to the things that I deem as most important. Those things will be there for another time, those things will fade, but Christ is upon whom I want to build my life. He is forever, “which shall not be taken away from me.” Luke 10:42

Fat Dad, Fat Kid Book Review

 Fat Dad, Fat Kid came out December 29, 2015, and that’s the day it arrived on our doorstep. I began reading it pretty much immediately. I’m not one to read “fitness” or health books. I never have before. But because I’m pretty familiar with Shay Carl and the Shaytards and what they do on YouTube I wanted to read this book.

 My first thought while reading this was what a great way to start the year! The timing of it’s release was perfect. New year, new you type of stuff right here in this book. From the title, the cover, and most of the content in the book its pretty safe to assume this is a fitness book. But I’d like to better classify it as just a motivational book. It’s a really motivating book! Sure, it focuses more on physical aspects, but I think all of what is in here can be applied to your every day life.

I think that if you get really serious about your physical health, you work hard, you play hard, eat healthy, do more, that all of that will leak out into other aspects of what you do with your life. You work harder for yourself, you’ll work harder for those around you, and you will reap the rewards from that.

Something else you may take from looking at the cover, and something I’ve read a lot of comments saying based on the cover or those who know the Shaytards, is that they don’t look like thin and trim or health experts. That’s true. They aren’t. But I really don’t think this was written with a “This is what you need to do-look at how great we look” objective. The whole book and all of its chapters are a challenge between a father and his son, over the span of a month, to learn more about being healthier. It’s dinner time, will you choose to hydrate yourself with refreshing water your body needs or this brown sugary drink? Will you eat a double bacon cheeseburger or opt for something healthier?

What I took from this book is it really isn’t a number on the scale, sure that’s a good measure, but it’s how you feel. Its the good or bad habits you make that affect your health. Its the good or bad choices you make that will either help you or put you further into a life of health issues. It’s about changing your thinking. Change how you look at food. Shay and his son aren’t experts or the thinnest people in the world, but their book motivated me!

I’m not going to say no forever to the things I enjoy eating like cookies, pizza and soda. I’m probably not going to exercise everyday. But more often than not I’m going to make better choices. Not sit around all day, day after day. Do I have to give up my chocolate chip cookies I love so much? No! But do I need to make them every single week? No, that’s probably not healthy. Do I have to eat nothing but fruits and vegetables? Well, that’d probably be good for me to do at least for a little while, but no I’m not going to do that. I am, however, going to eat them more often and make them more apart of my meals and snacks.

So, maybe you aren’t looking to read a “how to” book on fitness and health. You just need some motivation to get you going in the right direction. Then, this is definitely the book you want to read. After that it’s up to you to take action and do what you feel you need to do to feel better!

No More Excuses I’m Going To Read My Bible

“For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth.” Isaiah 55:10-11a

I’ve had such a desire stir in my heart to read and become more familiar with His Word. And it’s in my list of Godly Resolutions you can read here.  A message was given by my pastor back in August about the Word of God. It truly inspired me. From then on I’ve had an increasing desire to make the Bible a priority. A couple of statements he made in this message that stood out to me were, “God speaks every day through His Word. His will is in His Word.”


The Bible is literally a Christian’s instruction manual. In it I find everything I need for my daily walk with Him. It’s as a rain that cometh in and nourishes my life so that I can grow more in Him. I learn how to treat my brothers and sisters, how to be a good friend, how to forgive, how to have charity, how to walk righteously, how we ought to love. The list goes on and on.

But more than those things I get to learn more about my God and Savior. I get to read of His love. How he sent His only Son so that I may live eternal life. I have the privilege of reading how when Christ came and died on the cross for you, for me, how grace was applied. Where there was sin and death-Christ came and was obedient unto death. Where sin abounds in my life, grace does much more abound!! Romans 5:20

How empty and hopeless my life would be without Him. But how much more faith and hope and love I can have by reading His Word; by increasing my knowledge and understanding of what He’s done for me I will have more of a relationship with Him. The Word is powerful enough to move me from a destiny of death to a destiny of life. II Timothy 3:15 I can have life changing encounters with God through His Word. It’s powerful enough to change my way of thinking. Ephesians 5:26

I want to read his Word, I want to talk about it, I want to meditate on it, I want to sing it! In these words of life is my God and my Savior, in these words are His will for me. I want to fill my mind with more of His Word. And by doing this I’ll begin to have more communication with Him as He speaks to me through it.

I’ve never been faithful about reading my Bible. It’s something I really need to work on and make a priority in my life. But I think God is so great, in that He knows the desire of our hearts. And when we have a desire to learn more of Him, He will satisfy those desires. I’ve had some experiences (dealing with every day life, the kids, praying for friends, etc…) in just the last couple of months and a scripture will come to my mind. And I KNOW it’s God speaking to me. And it’s causing me to want to read the scriptures more!

Like I said, I’ve never been good about reading and having a knowledge of His Word. Sure, I’ve heard it my whole life. But to have scriptures randomly come to me like that has never happened. I know it’s God giving me a greater desire to search out the scriptures. I want to listen to His call. He’s asking me to draw closer. And I know that as I draw closer to Him that He will draw closer to me. Grant it, LORD! And I just have to give Him the glory!

 I really have no excuses why the Bible can’t be apart of some part of my every day life. I’m not running around like a chicken with its head cut off from the second I open my eyes to the minute I close them. There are always times in my day where I’m relaxing here and there. Either I’m nursing my son, putting him to sleep, taking 10-20 minutes to myself while my daughter plays in her room, or the 2-3 hours I have in the evening after my kids are asleep. There’s plenty of time to read 2-4 chapters a day of the Bible. So, why do I always make excuses for myself not to read my Bible through in a year?

I’m ashamed I’ve never read my Bible through, cover to cover, in a year. Shouldn’t that be something every Christian has done? Yet, somehow I’ve always come up with a reason or why not to. And somehow I always feel justified by those excuses. But this year those reasons and excuses just aren’t enough. I may have 2 kids and a house to tend to, but let’s be honest, I always have times throughout the day where I have the opportunity to look through my phone. I check some social media, pin some things on Pinterest, do some texting, etc… And I have the KJV Bible on my phone so why don’t I read it while I have some down time?

I know it won’t be easy. I may miss a day here or there. I know it will be hard to bring my mind under submission and really focus on what I’m reading. I have no excuses. I have nothing to lose, but everything to gain.

My Time As A Mother

When I look back on this time in my life, as a mom, I know there will be many things I’ll remember. The good and the bad.

I’ll remember the things my kids did that drove me crazy, I’ll remember all the nights I tried so hard to get them to sleep through the night, their first “real” sicknesses, and all the countless times I picked up all those toys.

More than all of that, though, I think I will remember trying to get my kids to play so I could get my stuff done. Trying to distract them with toys and movies so I could clean the house. I’ll remember caving in and letting them have my phone or the iPad just so I could fold a couple loads of laundry without getting interrupted and without them throwing all the folded clothes around because their “helping” me.

I will remember all of that because I’m pretty sure that’s what I’ll look back and regret the most.


I forget and I forget, but I’m trying to keep reminding myself the things that I have placed as a priority (a perfect house, getting things done in a timely manner,etc…) are not the things that matter. When I’m 50 and 60 years old I know I’m not going to look back and say “Well, at least my house was clean and I stuck to my perfect schedule.” If it is, then I know I’ve lived a poor life and gave my children a poor childhood. And so, I need to change.

These are the things (to name a few) that I want to remember and say about my time as a mother…

“The house was a mess….but we had SO MUCH FUN building forts in the living room.”

“It took hours but my daughter LOVED helping me fold and put away the laundry. She felt so helpful and accomplished and learned some things about responsibility and housewifery.”

“I had to scrub and scrape stickers off our floor, but they SO ENJOYED “decorating” with them. And I loved seeing reminders of my children around the house when I see their stickers all over the place. ”

“It required some patience but my kids LOVED helping me make dinner-It was a blast! And was way too salty.”

My kids had a fun childhood WITH their mom and dad.”

“We were there for them…always”

Of course I know I’m there for my kids, and we do everything to make them know we are. But I want to make sure I’m there for them not just in the big things, but also in the little things that don’t seem to matter at this point. I’m realizing that a perfect house really doesn’t matter. No, as much as I’d love to, I won’t forfeit cleaning anymore. But I’ll work to shift my priorities. If I don’t get to it, I don’t get to it. It can wait till the kids are in bed. It can wait till tomorrow. Or it can take longer than usual so they can participate with me. After all, what else do I have going on that’s so important?

My children’s lives are the most important thing I’ll ever invest my time in. They’re so worth it.


And it’s not just about playing with them. I’ve been given this duty of raising and training up my children. Proverbs 22:6 “Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.” It’s my job to look for and find opportunities to teach them and help them grow. How can I do that if I’m casting them aside throughout the day? What does that teach them?

I want to say I’m not literally “casting them aside every day.” I do things with them, I gently care for them, I’m there for them. For the most part I’d say I’m a good mom. I make mistakes, clearly. I’m simply stating and encouraging that I want to devote more time to my children. After all, God entrusted them to me. They’re the biggest responsibility I have and will ever have. And I always want to look for ways on improving my role as a mother.

I stated earlier that how can I create learning opportunities for my children if I’m not actively being apart of the things they take part in? If I’m not creating new adventures for them, taking the time to teach them new things. But so much more important than all of that is my responsibility to teach them about their Heavenly Father.

“And thou shalt love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might. And these words, which I command thee this day, shall be in thine heart: And thou shalt teach them DILIGENTLY unto thy children, and shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine house, and when thou walkest by the way, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up.” Deuteronomy 6:5-7

This is something I cannot take lightly. If I don’t teach them about God, who will? If I don’t pray for them, who will? If I don’t teach them to pray, who will?

I’m just trying to remind myself and encourage you that the episode of that show you need to catch up on can wait. The dishes can wait. The laundry can wait. The bathrooms will be there later to clean. Our children need us now. They’re growing and won’t be little for long. What we do now makes an imprint on their lives forever. Enjoy every minute. Watch them grow. Experience their growth. Relive your childhood again with them.

Put the phone away, forget about the constant to-dos that never go away, make messes, have laughs, have conversations, make memories, don’t waste your motherhood.

LORD, grant me the grace and strength to be the mother I need to be for my children.